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Name: Oxide Location: Grand Rapids, Michigan, United States Gender: Male
Interests: "Tool", "Rammstein", "Garbage", "Eisley", "Coldplay", "Stone Temple Pilots". I love sushi, Walk-abouts. Foreigners. Tests. Film. Recording. Writing. Purepwnage.com, Redvsblue.com, break.com, ebay, THE COLBERT REPORT Expertise: You. Occupation: Operations Industry: Construction
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...an echo of God...for a splintering rod... ...the first one is empty...the other, half flawed... ...visionary... ...but not skeptical... ...just a fit of green...in a wondrous machine... ...a wondrous endeavour...that's barely oblique...
I stopped to ponder it all... ...but got lost along the way...(it'll work itself out...right?)...
...right...
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| Stephanie France: heyy Emerald Zittel: Hey. Stephanie France: sorry.. computer issues. =/ Stephanie France: is there something wrong.. again? Emerald Zittel: Nothing more than before Emerald Zittel: ... guess... Emerald Zittel: *I guess... Stephanie France: why cant you tell me what it is though.. 2:10 AM Stephanie France: its really bothering me and if you tell me tomorrow it will just ruin everything even more than it is right now. does courtney know? Emerald Zittel: No Emerald Zittel: no one does Emerald Zittel: no one even knows anything' wrong between us. Stephanie France: how can they not know, you've been "contacting" people. they have to know something. 2:15 AM Emerald Zittel: No they don't. Stephanie France: but how.. Emerald Zittel: I didn't tell them. That's how. Stephanie France: cant they tell something is up by what you ask them or whatever.. Emerald Zittel: It's not their business Emerald Zittel: No Stephanie France: i know that but its them assuming like every one else would. Emerald Zittel: They don't have anything to assume on Emerald Zittel: I act Stephanie France: but then how do you get your information? Emerald Zittel: I get these people to tell me what I want without them realizing it's of anything importance Emerald Zittel: That way, Emerald Zittel: I can gauruntee their honesty Emerald Zittel: Other than that, Emerald Zittel: who's to say they're not lying for someone??? Emerald Zittel: How owould I ever know? Emerald Zittel: And therin lies the problem Emerald Zittel: How would you ever know if someone lied to you? Emerald Zittel: There's no one way I guess Emerald Zittel: I believe God and Sata equally determine that Stephanie France: okay. thats alot.. lol Stephanie France: understandable though.. i like it. Emerald Zittel: God, giving light when desired or deserved; Satan, skewing and distorting people's perceptions of instances... Stephanie France: that makes complete sence. Emerald Zittel: Unfortunately yes. Emerald Zittel: But how do you recognize? Emerald Zittel: When the decision is made? 2:20 AM Emerald Zittel: If it's lie vs. lie for all you know. One is right, one isn't, and all you've got is knowing that Satan is tricking you and God might be helping you. In the end, it all comes doubt to our intuition, intelligence, and situational acuteness... Emerald Zittel: That's where we truly earn our stripes Emerald Zittel: lol Emerald Zittel: Not myspace... Stephanie France: i dont get the myspace part.. Emerald Zittel: I ed instead of ital-ing it... 2:25 AM Stephanie France: ohh.. i was wondering about that but i just let it go.. Stephanie France: i love this song.. is that bad.. Emerald Zittel: I don't know. I guess it's up to you. Is it? Stephanie France: i dont think so.. but its just my mood right now. Stephanie France: almost.. just slow. almost sad. Emerald Zittel: What song Stephanie France: you know it. Emerald Zittel: Not yet don't Emerald Zittel: *I don't Stephanie France: well you do know the song, thats all i said. Stephanie France: ode to my family.. Emerald Zittel: No. Emerald Zittel: I love it too. Emerald Zittel: I've been listening to it since I was twelve. Stephanie France: wow Emerald Zittel: The Crannberries were one of the first bands I started listening to. Stephanie France: thats cool. Emerald Zittel: ever Stephanie France: lol 2:30 AM Stephanie France: caleb.. Emerald Zittel: Yes? Stephanie France: i knew you were going to say that. Stephanie France: i was just wondering if you were still there because i feel like i may be forcing the conversation. Emerald Zittel: No. Emerald Zittel: I wouldn't be on if you were Stephanie France: just wondering.. Stephanie France: i hate this. Emerald Zittel: What? Stephanie France: do you want to see my cousin BJ? Emerald Zittel: Sure. Stephanie France: hes on my site.. his name is benny bot 2:35 AM Stephanie France: boy* Stephanie France: hes funny Emerald Zittel: Haha. He's cuee. Stephanie France: cuTe? Emerald Zittel: Yeah. Emerald Zittel: why? Emerald Zittel: (Just without that strange capitalization) 2:40 AM Stephanie France: you spelled it wrong.. i was asking if that was what you meant.. Stephanie France: sorry/ Stephanie France: i think its funny that you think my cousin is cute.. lol Stephanie France: heyy.. 2:45 AM Emerald Zittel: what? Stephanie France: just making sure your still there.. your not talking.. Emerald Zittel: You lied Stephanie France: when Emerald Zittel: Many times. Or are you referring to what I'm bringing up? Stephanie France: what? Emerald Zittel: Which one. Stephanie France: what are you talking about? i asked if you were still here. Emerald Zittel: You...lied. About thngs before Stephanie France: as in.. what. Emerald Zittel: Things about our fight Stephanie France: okay. i remember that. Emerald Zittel: you lied to try and stop things from being worse Stephanie France: i did.. because i dont think.. i know. we've been through this. Emerald Zittel: don't think....what? Stephanie France: i think that if i dont say something that it will keep things from blowing up in my face but it doesnt.. therefore i dont think. just keep going. 2:50 AM Emerald Zittel: I don't believe that. Stephanie France: okay.. well believe what you want then. Stephanie France: what were you talking about earlier. Emerald Zittel: I believe you know that it will blow up in your face, so you lied to stop it. You knew very well what would happen. It's always the little things, you do that so much....it's compulsive, I see it. Stephanie France: well i dont think the way that you do. i honestly dont think that that will happen at that time. but then it does, and you would think that i would realize it before making an ass of myself.. but i dont. i need to. i know that. Emerald Zittel: You smooth over the edges of everything potentially harmful to you, so you don't have to deal with anything Stephanie France: i deal with everything all the time though Stephanie France: thats why i try and avoid things like that. Emerald Zittel: What happened that night at the theater? Afterwords. Stephanie France: nothing. i went home with my dad Stephanie France: thats it. Emerald Zittel: To your dad's? Stephanie France: .. yes.. where else.. Emerald Zittel: I didn't know if he dropped you off Emerald Zittel: You said Mitch calle dyou last minute, and you had nothing to do so you decided to go. Emerald Zittel: and your dad dropped you off Stephanie France: yes, i was with my dad.. he was in a meeting and he suggested going to a movie. and when mitch called he said i shouls just go with him. he wanted to go with me anyway. 2:55 AM Stephanie France: i walked to the theater from where he was and then afterwards he picked me up and we went home. Emerald Zittel: From the theater he picked you up? Emerald Zittel: ? Stephanie France: yes. Stephanie France: he was right outside the doors. like always. Emerald Zittel: So. Weren't you upset with Mitch? Emerald Zittel: That's sarcasm Stephanie France: i dont get it Stephanie France: i didnt talk to mitch if thats what your getting at. Stephanie France: afterwards for a few days. Emerald Zittel: Wouldn't you be upset with him hitting on you for a second time afer you "tol him npot to"? Stephanie France: yes.. i was.. thats why i didnt talk to him for a few days afterwards. Emerald Zittel: But you said you went out in the loby and had a great conversation Emerald Zittel: where he tried to cheer you up Stephanie France: that was before the movie. Emerald Zittel: You said after Stephanie France: no. Emerald Zittel: why would you lie about that? Stephanie France: thats why he wanted to go to the movies with me. to cheer me up Emerald Zittel: Yes. Stephanie France: i didnt. Stephanie France: caleb that doesnt even make any sence. Stephanie France: i didnt lie about that. what i just told you is what i told you before and i KNOW that. Stephanie France: its the trurh caleb. 3:00 AM Emerald Zittel: I very specifically recall you saying "we went out and watched the movie to put me in a better mood, so he could cheer me up. Except, it didn't work. He talked to me afterwards, but I was still upset) Stephanie France: no caleb. Stephanie France: thats WHY he wanted to take me to a movie.. to cheer me up. he knew it didnt really work but i left with my dad. i didnt talk to him after that. Emerald Zittel: Nohe didn't Stephanie France: what? Stephanie France: he didnt know that it didnt work? Emerald Zittel: He wanted to take you out to tryand hit on you. And you can't say you didn't expect it to happen. Because I think it's simply human weakness Stephanie France: im sure he could tell caleb. he WAS obsessed with me quite a bit. Stephanie France: no. because thats our relationship. he knew that i was in a terrible mood and he just wanted to be the good friend and help me out. thats all. he may have thought of it as a chance to hit on me.. but i highly doubt it. Emerald Zittel: This is someone you've been crushing on for 10 months, and who's been in a relationship. He's finally single and paying attention to you. Of course those feelings are going to be stirred. Of course you're going to want to do things with him, because it makes you feel good. Stephanie France: no it doesnt caleb!! Stephanie France: i have you. Stephanie France: thats all i need. Stephanie France: why would i want to fuck that up Emerald Zittel: It's easy to say. Emerald Zittel: God I wish Iknew Stephanie France: i dont feel that way for him anymore. and you know that. Emerald Zittel: You said he called you that day Emerald Zittel: But in reality, Emerald Zittel: you had spoken the day before about going Emerald Zittel: planned it Emerald Zittel: To "hang out" and about a movie 3:05 AM Emerald Zittel: Sad...huh Stephanie France: no.. i didnt talk to him the day before to plan it Emerald Zittel: You asked him to hang out that day before Stephanie France: he called and asked if i wanted to hang out and i told him that i couldnt. then he called me a few days later which would have been that day and it ended up working out. Stephanie France: i called him because he left a message on my phone telling me to call him. Emerald Zittel: Jun 27 2007 7:31P
your so cute i was going to actually.. but i look bad tomorrow.. im not sure i can hang out. im really sorry!! i'll talk to my dad about it, but i AM in rockford.. without a car. give me a call in the morning, or i'll call you. whatever works okay? ? Emerald Zittel: Jun 27 2007 8:28A
wow. long comment? call me to hang out sorry i havent been home. tomorrow? ? Emerald Zittel: The second was first actually Emerald Zittel: 27th...right? Emerald Zittel: That's what you said to me Stephanie France: apparently. Stephanie France: yes it was Emerald Zittel: Apparently Stephanie France: why are you saying apparently? Stephanie France: he called to hang out. left a message. i hadn't called him back. so i sent him that. Stephanie France: the first one ((second)) im not sure about though. Stephanie France: i dont remember it.. Emerald Zittel: It was sent at 10:30 Emerald Zittel: which either meant, Stephanie France: at night? Emerald Zittel: you lied, or you lied. Emerald Zittel: Either, 3:10 AM Stephanie France: what? Stephanie France: hold on. im confused. Stephanie France: nothing was sent at ten anything. Emerald Zittel: The first one was sent before you went that day (meaning you did message him and talk later, and you weren't upset), or the first was the day before, and you did indeed plan it a day ahead. Emerald Zittel: That time is 3 hours behing Emerald Zittel: if it says 7:30, it was 10:30 Stephanie France: he wanted to plan it and it didnt work so THAT day it ended up working out. Stephanie France: why is it three hours behind? Emerald Zittel: Which meant, you commented him after you got back....telling him he was "so cute"....yeah, you sounded reeeeaaally pissed... Stephanie France: from what he said to me. comments reply just like messages do. Emerald Zittel: Myspace headquarters is in CA. Same with Bungie (creators of Halo), so I got used to it.... Stephanie France: ohh. Stephanie France: thats interesting. Emerald Zittel: No it's not. Emerald Zittel: It's disturbing. Stephanie France: that its three hours behind? Stephanie France: i found it interesting.. because i didnt know that. Emerald Zittel: Yes. Emerald Zittel: Comment me and see for yourself Stephanie France: i did. Stephanie France: i didnt say i dont believe it. i just didnt know that Emerald Zittel: I know you didn't Emerald Zittel: But either way, one way or another (as usual), what you're telling me doesn't make sense Emerald Zittel: At all. Emerald Zittel: I'm staring at it. Stephanie France: i dont understand then, i honestly dont, im sorry. 3:15 AM Emerald Zittel: Thta's amazing Emerald Zittel: How could you say that? Emerald Zittel: You "don't understand" Stephanie France: what? i dont.. okay. Emerald Zittel: It's VERY simple. Stephanie France: i dont understand alot of things.. but im trying to. Stephanie France: i understand the time thing, but i dont understand the rest. Stephanie France: im not stupid Emerald Zittel: Either, you guys hung out th 28th, and you planned it the day before, or you hung out the 27th, and you talked to him afterwards (unless of course the movie was playing past 10:45, and you sent him the last comment right before you left) Emerald Zittel: I believe the former to be true Stephanie France: i dont remember when the movie got out but i know we planned it that day and i dont remember talking to him after that. i probably told him to hang out again afterwards but i dont remember it Stephanie France: whats the former? Emerald Zittel: I believe called you the day of to confirm and finalize plans, but believe it was already in the works for a bit before. I believe you justified this lie by saying "he did call before", but in actuality:that was a deception.... Emerald Zittel: It means the first one Stephanie France: he called a few days before and wanted to hang out Stephanie France: i told him that i couldnt but then he called back that day and things worked out. Stephanie France: it wasnt actually planned. Emerald Zittel: And regarding you "probably telling him", that means your story about "being upset, and not talking to him for three days" was bollocks. If you were upset, you wouldn't have started planning you next "hang out session" (according to you) 3:20 AM Emerald Zittel: What day? WHich one??? Stephanie France: i didnt plan it. i was just telling him that i had a good time. i know that i didnt talk to him after that. Stephanie France: my god i dont know! Emerald Zittel: Lastly...(well probably not) Emerald Zittel: If... Stephanie France: ... Stephanie France: probably not last? or probably not true? Emerald Zittel: you were "so upset" (as it's rapidly turning out to be you weren't upset at all my this guy you had feelings for making moves everywhere you went), would you–4 days later– post the blog comment you did? Emerald Zittel: (Not last) Stephanie France: which comment? the one about hanging out? Emerald Zittel: No. Stephanie France: i know that i HAD feelings for him. but i DONT anymore. you KNOW that caleb. Stephanie France: well then i dont know what your talking about.. im sorry. Emerald Zittel: Had? as in before this theater thing? Stephanie France: no. Emerald Zittel: Blog! Stephanie France: as in the BEGINNING OF THE YEAR Stephanie France: what blog? Emerald Zittel: You still liked him when I met you! Stephanie France: NOT LIKE THAT Stephanie France: i completely lost all feelings for him when i started tlaking to you caleb Emerald Zittel: You drew his name and simply the way you talked about him! Oh come off it.... Emerald Zittel: MEANING Stephanie France: i never drew his name. Emerald Zittel: You didn't just like him at the begining of the year Stephanie France: thats when i would have done something about it. Emerald Zittel: I saw his name in your note book Stephanie France: i dont feel that way towards him anymore. and i havent for a long timw Stephanie France: time* Stephanie France: i write it.. in class.. with him. lol Stephanie France: he writes mine too. Stephanie France: and shays.. brittneys.. yours.. 3:25 AM Emerald Zittel: But not because you "no longer like him", only because you found someone you "lilke more". Which means those feelings aren't really gone, they're just just pushed aside and hidden. Stephanie France: no caleb. Stephanie France: DONT tell me how i feel about you okay. Stephanie France: dont. Stephanie France: its not that i liked you more. its that i took total and complete interest in you and dropped everything else i had just to talk to you at night Stephanie France: i forgot about mitchell for the longest time. you dont even know. Emerald Zittel: But it doesn NOT mean a 8 month long crush suddenly disappears, and we both know that. Stephanie France: it wasnt eight months that i liked him' Emerald Zittel: Something just became more important to you Stephanie France: i thought he was cute.. way before i liked him Emerald Zittel: From the "begining of the year" Stephanie France: in the beginning i didnt like him like that. i just wanted to get to know him i swear. Stephanie France: i didnt start liking him until i talked to him more. Stephanie France: blame mrs kloet. she sat him in front of me and dustin next to me Emerald Zittel: You said you wrote that note saying how you feel about him and his g/f near the beginging of the year Stephanie France: near it. that could be three months in. Stephanie France: its not like i completely focused on him. i hardly thought of him unless we were in class together. Stephanie France: its not that something was more important caleb. it was that i WANTED it to be. i dropped everything every single night just so i could talk to you. until the early early hours of the morning. i dont do that with anyone else. 3:30 AM Stephanie France: it meant a whole lot more to me than anything else Emerald Zittel: I know. Emerald Zittel: But just because I drop everything when it comes to my ambition, doesn't mean there aren't other things that interest me. It just means I'll choose that over them... Stephanie France: exactly. Stephanie France: you choose that over them. nothing can stand in your way no matter what Emerald Zittel: I know. Stephanie France: your film career. nothing will stop you from that. you have to make yourself do it. and i chose that. Emerald Zittel: I think you're getting off track. My point is that just because I matter so much to you, doesn't mean you weren't interested in somethng else a little bit (which is bound to hppen, and the world wn't end), but you chose to go hang out with him again and again and lying to me about it BECAUSE you were defensive. Stephanie France: i didnt choose to hang out with him again and again and again. Stephanie France: i hung out with him twice. Stephanie France: im always defensive.. you should know that. Emerald Zittel: You say you don't know why you didn't tell me. Something about "Trvis". That's Bull. I know why you didn't tell me, and why you lied. Because you knew it was wrong. You felt it, and you felt it wasn't just two casual friends. Stephanie France: no i didnt! Emerald Zittel: He went to your house a week before school let out Stephanie France: why would i think that about him? Emerald Zittel: to "study" Emerald Zittel: that's three Stephanie France: yeah.. and we DID Stephanie France: history exam. we had that class together. Emerald Zittel: that's THREE. 3:35 AM Stephanie France: okay so i forgot about that one. i dont keep track of them caleb Emerald Zittel: Why would you think that about him....because he was obseessed with you, because you would lie to me to cover it up, telling me it was a friends only relationship, and deep down, you were attracted back. Stephanie France: i was attracted but not in a way that would make me do anything about it. i have YOU. Stephanie France: travis had a long term affect on me. and you of ALL people should know that. i didnt used to be insecure.. he did that to me, so he DID have things to do with it. Stephanie France: its not like i hang on mitchell i dont even hit him Emerald Zittel: You said "Mitch is just a great person. He's one of those people that would never make up anything behind someone's back". Yet now, you are assuring me that he is, when it comes to you...When before, you were so quick to defend his "saint-hood" Stephanie France: not even to get his attention.. because i KNOW how he will think of it. Stephanie France: i know.. because he had never done anything like that to ME Stephanie France: other people a few times.. but thats not how he was all the time. Emerald Zittel: you said "he would never", and now you tell me "well maybe sometimes. Stephanie France: not ever to me. i thought that okay. Stephanie France: he never had. Stephanie France: hes done it to other people.. his ex gf and suck. Stephanie France: such* Emerald Zittel: If it suited your purposes, I am completely confident that you would be telling me he would NEVER do that...but alas, it does not suit you... 3:40 AM Emerald Zittel: What did he say? Emerald Zittel: About her? Stephanie France: about his ex? Emerald Zittel: Yes. Stephanie France: that she was a whore and that she should get shot in the face.. lol Stephanie France: she wrote him a looooong e-mail asking him to take her back and he wrote back.. fuck you i never want to see you or talk to you ever again. Stephanie France: she didnt do anything. she went to the movies with another guy. Stephanie France: and he called her a whore.. slut.. easy.. everything. Emerald Zittel: That's not making something up and telling other people though. That's being mad. Emerald Zittel: why? Emerald Zittel: what did she do? Stephanie France: i dont know everything but the guy tried making a move and she let him. Stephanie France: thats all that i know. Stephanie France: he let dustin and i read the e-mail in class. and we just talked about it all house. Stephanie France: hour* Emerald Zittel: Well that seems justified...this....what he said, would not be if what you're saying is true Stephanie France: what wont be justified.. ? Emerald Zittel: What he said about you Stephanie France: thats not justified? Emerald Zittel: I would have responded the same way if i was in his position, but I would not make up something about someone because they wouldn't be with me. Emerald Zittel: Maybe he's different, but that's an example Stephanie France: he just flips out mentally when things like that throw him off. thats what i think anyway. Stephanie France: i understand that. Emerald Zittel: This is the comment left 4 days later I found rather....gross. Emerald Zittel: http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendID=22077991&blogID=238079407 3:45 AM Stephanie France: okay.. hold on. Stephanie France: oh my god. its friend humor. Stephanie France: i wasnt serious. Emerald Zittel: Right after what happened at the theater? you've got to be kidding Stephanie France: no Emerald Zittel: It's not like you posted it with smileys, etc or in a joking manner. you used periods (which you rarely do) and spoke very seriously Stephanie France: thats my humor.. lol Stephanie France: i use periods all the time when im being sarcastic.. otherwise i say that im serious. Emerald Zittel: mitch...
Jul 6, 2007 8:05 PM who are you in a relationship with? <3 Stephanie France: i'll be right back okay? i have to go to the bathroom.. Emerald Zittel: .love.[[Slain]].
Jul 6 2007 8:06P
maybe i should change that. whoops. i forgot to. im sorry. ? Stephanie France: that would be you Stephanie France: i'll be right back okay. please hold on. 3:50 AM Stephanie France: im back Emerald Zittel: and..? Emerald Zittel: comments?? Emerald Zittel: on what you meant... Stephanie France: okay Emerald Zittel: Waiting. Stephanie France: i know you are damnit. Stephanie France: i dont have an explanation for that. he knew i was with you. i really dont.. Emerald Zittel: I' Stephanie France: hmm? Emerald Zittel: I'm talking about what you said to him Stephanie France: i told you.. i dont know. honestly. Emerald Zittel: You responded, talking about your status. and then you apologized. For however it was at the time (I'm assuming "in a relationship) Stephanie France: it was. its been there. since the twenty seventh. Stephanie France: happy three months.. Emerald Zittel: 27th of... Stephanie France: april Stephanie France: what else. Emerald Zittel: Thanks Stephanie France: for what Emerald Zittel: So...you spent our two month doing something that would inevitably cause the ruin of our 3 month....ironic Emerald Zittel: reminding me. 3:55 AM Stephanie France: i know you didnt want me to im just saying.. you can open your box now.. Stephanie France: i never thought of it like that, im sorry. Emerald Zittel: I's not here. Stephanie France: ohh =[ Emerald Zittel: It's at my home Emerald Zittel: I'm at my parents Stephanie France: i know.. computer.. lol Emerald Zittel: I just don't know what to say Stephanie France: to what.. Emerald Zittel: everything. Again, so many things come down to "I don't know"'s and "you don't understand"'s...what the hell would you think? Emerald Zittel: what would you say? Stephanie France: nothing came down to an i dont know besides that one thing. Stephanie France: what would i say to what Stephanie France: and i told you that i didnt understand once. Emerald Zittel: If you were me Stephanie France: if i were you and you were hanging out with a guy that liked you and found you attractive? Emerald Zittel: girl Stephanie France: well your me. Emerald Zittel: and who I had a history with Stephanie France: i dont have a history with mitchell Emerald Zittel: I history regarding that I've known and desired them for a deal of time. Emerald Zittel: *A Stephanie France: i dont get the A but okay. 4:00 AM Stephanie France: i would feel bad about it.. neglected in a way i guess. Stephanie France: ohh.. A history.. not I history.. got it. Emerald Zittel: If she was teling you these things that could all quite posiibly be true, and you know that I'd been sneaking around with her. But I kept bringing up arguements....although....some just didn't add up...make sense....Some I just didn't know how to answer. Stephanie France: i didnt sneak around with him. that makes it sound like cheating. Emerald Zittel: If a person speaks the truth, they will always answer promptly, and correctly. They will never "not know" Emerald Zittel: You snuck. Emerald Zittel: Being with him, not telling, and lying is called sneaking. Stephanie France: that makes it sound terrible though like i did something awful with him Emerald Zittel: And what if you did? Stephanie France: sneaking is being with him, lying, not telling, and something sexual Emerald Zittel: Oh yes, I wouldn't have known....because you didn't tell me... Stephanie France: i didnt do anything with him! Stephanie France: if i had done something i would have told you. Emerald Zittel: funny how those two help each other out Stephanie France: what two Emerald Zittel: Why? Stephanie France: why what? Stephanie France: why would i have told you? Emerald Zittel: How not telling me about something, and something happening work out s great together. Stephanie France: okay.. Stephanie France: ? Emerald Zittel: Most people that plan on nothing happening have to quams with sayin they will be with someone. They don't usually slip off on dates then make up stories. Emerald Zittel: Yes Stephanie France: they arent dates. Emerald Zittel: Why would you have told me. Emerald Zittel: They might as well have been. 4:05 AM Stephanie France: its cheating. i would have broken up with you or at least advised you to. Stephanie France: they werent at all and you know that. Stephanie France: i cant handle cheating. Emerald Zittel: But think! Stephanie France: okay.. im thinking.. Emerald Zittel: If you love someone as much as you claim.. So much I "can't understand. Any person would do all in there power not to lose that...even if they messed up Stephanie France: you cant mess up like that. its a one time deal. its all or nothing in that case. Stephanie France: i know to try with everything that i have not to lose you if that happened but i honestly dont know if i could handle it. Emerald Zittel: Did you know that Mitch told other people he kissed you after that "study time"? Emerald Zittel: Why would he do that? Stephanie France: are you serious? Stephanie France: i did not know that. no. we didnt i swear to god! my mom was there with us. she can back me up on this. Emerald Zittel: He said she saw you two cuddle Stephanie France: cuddle? Emerald Zittel: He said he knew for sure she saw you do that 4:10 AM Stephanie France: he was on the floor in front of the chair, and i was on my stomache on the floor about two feet from the closet. Stephanie France: facing him. Emerald Zittel: Great view. Stephanie France: of what? Stephanie France: *me? Emerald Zittel: *tick tock* Stephanie France: tick tock? i dont think thats the best term.. Emerald Zittel: *DING DING* Yes! Emerald Zittel: You are correct! Emerald Zittel: Of ou. Stephanie France: but i know that.. i didnt have a tank top on. because i kept checking that. Emerald Zittel: *you Stephanie France: i know. Emerald Zittel: Well... Stephanie France: well what.. Emerald Zittel: It's curious... Stephanie France: your curious? Emerald Zittel: How well you recall details as small as your exact thoughts 3 months ago....but not the meaning of a message (of which the meaning is wuite clear) three weeks ago Stephanie France: what did i remember from three months ago? Emerald Zittel: your thoughts about the "lack of cleavage covering material" Stephanie France: that was in june. Stephanie France: exam week 4:15 AM Emerald Zittel: alright then 2 and a half months Emerald Zittel: the point still remains Stephanie France: i remember that, i dont know why. i just do. the message, i have no idea okay. Stephanie France: umm.. one and a half at MOSE Stephanie France: MOST* Stephanie France: its july Emerald Zittel: Oh yes....we are still in July... Stephanie France: yes.. we are Emerald Zittel: It grows dreary... Stephanie France: im sorry. Emerald Zittel: Do not be. Stephanie France: im going to be. i made it that way. Emerald Zittel: Do you know what I believe about that comment? Stephanie France: no, what. Emerald Zittel: I believe that he thought we had broken up. Because you told him. And I believe that when he saw that, he was taken offgaurd. So when he asked you what's going on, you tried to make him feel better by saying that you meant to change it but didn't. That you "forgot" to. Then you apolo–fucking–gized so he wouldn't be upset. Stephanie France: thats not it Emerald Zittel: It's the ONLY things that make s perfect sense Stephanie France: you and i were fighting and you had told me that you werent sure anymore. 4:20 AM Emerald Zittel: Lies! Emerald Zittel: We never fought! Stephanie France: so i thought that we were completely over. he talked to me that night and asked how i was and when i said terrible i said it was because of you Emerald Zittel: Until this! Stephanie France: YES WE DID Stephanie France: IT WASNT THIS BIG CALEB BUT THATS WHAT YOU SAID TO ME I REMEMBER IT PERFECTLY Emerald Zittel: Never once did you doubt us breaking up until this happened! Stephanie France: i have once before and that was it Stephanie France: i told him that i thought we were going to Stephanie France: and i guess he took that as we did Stephanie France: because i left after that. he told me that he hoped i would get better and then i left. Emerald Zittel: What was it that you were upset over. Surely you remember. Stephanie France: i dont remember that but i remember that i was at my moms house and i was talking to you and you got off the phone with me upset. i cant remember why Stephanie France: but i remember talking to him and feeling that. Stephanie France: that was the night that i cut myself right under my bathing suit lines. Emerald Zittel: I'm sorry Emerald Zittel: I guess that makes sense Emerald Zittel: forgive me. 4:25 AM Stephanie France: i do. Stephanie France: i honestly do. Stephanie France: i cant ask you to forgive me.. but will you.. ? 4:30 AM Emerald Zittel: I sent you a message Stephanie France: ohh.. Emerald Zittel: It's some of the con Mitch and I have had Stephanie France: okay. Emerald Zittel: him trying to convince me, me being skeptical and refusing to believe him...etc Stephanie France: understandable Emerald Zittel: It came down to him having no concrete evidence of his claims. Emerald Zittel: But I had to be sure. Emerald Zittel: Sorry for the aggression Emerald Zittel: BBut this is such a mess Stephanie France: sorry? Stephanie France: i know its a mess.. and i actually wanted to ask you something.. Emerald Zittel: I never wanted to be here...I was so....ignoranty happy before all of this...Now....I have mood swings all the time and I find myself not caring what happens Emerald Zittel: What? Stephanie France: i wish you would care. Emerald Zittel: ...do you want to ask me? Stephanie France: i cant. Emerald Zittel: .What. Stephanie France: i was just going to ask you to just completely stop tlaking to mitchell like i have. but i understand how you want to clear things up. so never mind.. 4:35 AM Emerald Zittel: I would love to stop talking to him. Emerald Zittel: But until one proves a part of the other's story to be a lie, I cannot Emerald Zittel: do you have any evidence contradicting the stuff he claims? Emerald Zittel: Witnesses? Recordings? messages? Letters? Stephanie France: no, nothing. Emerald Zittel: I want to believe you more than you could imagine that you two never crossed the line, but I need proof he's lying about something....anything Stephanie France: i dont have anything. im sorry.. Emerald Zittel: Me too. Stephanie France: i can try. Emerald Zittel: How....how.......... Stephanie France: hold on.. i cant see very well.. 4:40 AM Stephanie France: i dont know how caleb. its trying. i'll try for you. Stephanie France: i can think of two people.. possibly three.. but its sketchy. Stephanie France: not actually being there.. just from what i tell the, Stephanie France: them* Emerald Zittel: He has the same Emerald Zittel: people, witnesses to hat he told them Emerald Zittel: It won't let me send you any messages. Stephanie France: why does it do that? someone else said they couldnt send me messages too but i didnt know why Stephanie France: i dont have anything from you recently. 4:45 AM Stephanie France: sre you still there Stephanie France: ? 4:50 AM Stephanie France: caleb? Stephanie France: you could e-mail them
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| (spacer) The Repercussions of Silence One philosophy by Aristotle was, “He who is unable to live in society, or who has no need because he is sufficient for himself, must either be a beast or a god.” Ms. Emily is not a god, nor is she an exception to the fact that seclusion and social decline generally run hand-in-hand. However, the real story of “A Rose For Emily” lies not with Emily’s seclusion, but in the downward spiral that is triggered before her isolation and likewise proceeds it. Emily’s “downward spiral,” begins with her high social status, continues while she becomes secluded, declining emotionally (and socially), then it finally arrives at a tragic and gut-wrenching conclusion. As the tale proceeds, it becomes apparent that, Ms. Emily does not all of a sudden jump from polite recluse to sadistic necrophiliac, on the contrary she is merely an emotionally scarred victim of action and reaction, who is suffering from the materializing repercussions of her own dysfunctional past and is inept in the appropriate way to handle said repercussions. Emily’s relationship with her own family and the sheltered environment she was raised in are both significant contributions to the confused, unstable Emily that is introduced in the story. It is conveyed that “none of the young men were quite good enough for Miss Emily,” and consequently (due to her Father and/or Aunt’s over-protectiveness/pride) she is forced to remain single until she is thirty, the year upon which her Father dies. For the first thirty years of her life, Emily remained single, which means her emotional attachment was to the person she was closest with, or her Father as it were. The loss of such a fundamental cornerstone in Emily’s life, is one of the many components that compel her horrific actions towards the only other man to exist in her life beyond her Father. It was widely believed by the townspeople that “the Griersons held themselves a little too high for what they really were,” (although the Grierson was somewhat stifled due to the madness of Miss Emily’s great-aunt Wyatt). | | |
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